{wordy wednesday} — leaves of change

5 Sep

i have seriously been sitting at my computer all morning – i started 3 different blogs, got distracted, ate breakfast, cried a little {good cry}, and then started all over.  i blame nicki minaj.  i have been listening to the song “fly” on repeat since i woke up.  it’s my new theme song.  my favourite lyrics :

“Everybody wanna try to box me in
Suffocating every time it locks me in
Paint their own pictures then they crop me in
But I will remain where the top begins
Cause I am not a word, I am not a line
I am not a girl that can ever be defined

I am not fly, I am levitation
I represent an entire generation…”
———
mm, that just resonates with me — i love a girl who can rap!
well, the main thing i want to say this morning is i am CHANGING. i am transforming.  morphing, shedding, cleansing. i mean i’m seriously like a transformer, shifting into this new person… it’s wild. i feel so chill, so focused. normally i find things to get worked up about – whether good or bad, i find something. i have the hardest time just BEING.  i always say that i’m not comfortable with the plateaus in life… i’m usually creeping up a big hill, or i’m plummeting down from one… i struggle with just you know… walking.

but here i am, walking.  one little step at a time, toward a much bigger goal, a huge change. shedding layers upon layers of thought and pain and emotion that no longer serve a purpose for me.  letting go of habits that do not define me. opening up to a new version of me, to the REAL ME. it’s like my true essence is coming through.

i am so much like the leaves are up in aspen right now, morphing through a series of beautiful colours, changing… looking something like this :

so – less words lately.  maybe wordy wednesday will become wordLESS wednesday… or at least bounce between the two…
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9 Responses to “{wordy wednesday} — leaves of change”

  1. anthony0358 September 5, 2012 at 11:41 am #

    I have been feeling boxed in and trapped at times, so this was very helpful to read

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  2. mylifeisthebestlife September 5, 2012 at 12:26 pm #

    You’re a beautiful transformer!

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  3. realocalcooking September 5, 2012 at 1:50 pm #

    Where oh where do you find trees so lovely?

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  4. LaVagabonde September 11, 2012 at 2:09 am #

    Beautiful photos. Birch trees are so expressive.

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    • cooking with audrey September 12, 2012 at 12:20 am #

      thank you so much. i have to agree – they are just gorgeous, nothin’ like ’em.

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  5. JLK September 16, 2012 at 5:50 am #

    cant see the trees for the forest, but its nice to try

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