“you always buy the unique-looking produce… the ones no one else wants, the oddballs, the misfits!” — a coworker said to me.
i like anything out of the ordinary. because me?! – i’m out of the ordinary…… i mean we are all unique, just like everyone else, right?!
but i’m a very old soul… and i’ve seen a LOT in my some 10 thousand years… and in my current waking life, i often feel like some of the fruits and vegetables i buy – discarded, overlooked, passed-by, out-casted, and just plain weird. but dude, i’m totally still edible – and you know – some things get better with age… 😉
well… i found this potato particularly interesting because it kind of represented me. not only was it heart-shaped, as i obviously am, and which i find a lot of random things that find their way into my visual path are, but it is also kind of two different colours. it almost looks as if a garnet yam and a jewel yam are intertwined. it got me thinking about how i believe we all have a duality to us. i was having a conversation with a friend about all the changes going on in the world right now – the talk of 2012 doomsday, or the hope of a 2012 arising – in love and light, and consciousness, perhaps? and we were discussing how we all have a “dark side” — and some of us publicly show it with acts of violence or utter projection as to inflict sheer pain on the person receiving it, and some of us albeit perhaps not as violent, still keep it very much hidden, which can take a TON of conscious effort.
much like this potato, we are two different colours. we are literally two different forms of being, and yet we are intertwined… sort of – fighting for leadership. look at this foto – it’s almost as if the left side is trying to eat the right side… like dueling siamese twins.
i’m going through slash coming out of this huge change in my life, wherein, my dark and light side have been fighting. i’ve spoken on this before several times … and my light is continuing to win. i was worried for a bit there… but see, what i had to do what sever all ties with anything that wasn’t light. and i’m continuing to do that to this very moment. it hasn’t been easy in the slightest… however it’s opening up more to me every day.
so, when i cut this potato in half i seriously had this little ceremony in my head and i was like, “okay potato… i’m going to cut you in half now… and it may hurt a little, but trust me it’s for the best… you don’t really need to hold on to this other potato, she can still be part of you once i mix you together with butter and salt in what we refer to as “mashed yamtatoes“, but you can live separate and still be part of the same thing…”
how cryptic and weird am i?! …
it’s like i’m the potato. i’m all heart-shaped and amazing… and i had to cut myself in half in order to figure out what the middle was really made of… and then i threw myself back out into the universe flowing freely in the stars…
and because i’m adamant about truly turning over a new leaf, leaving the old behind, starting anew – i’ve created an alter-ego name for myself. i’ve always secretly wanted my last name to be “ellis” because i thought “audrey ellis” had a lovely ring to it. but i’m also extremely drawn to the colour MAGENTA. like, everything i own is magenta. my robe i’m currently cozied up in, my yoga mat, my yoga bag, my reusable grocery bags, and soon to be my new logo colour. i’m changing it tomorrow.
so, please help me warmly welcome magenta ellis to the neighbourhood. she’ll definitely be making her presence known.