hey gang. hope you’re enjoying the weekend.
i unfortunately have not been sleeping very well at all this week and am extremely tired and worn out. i look forward to resting this weekend, and doing not much of anything else…
my brain has been on overdrive, due to this lack of sleep and i’m sure a hundred other physiological aspects that come along with it… and i’ve just been in a lousy headspace today. when i don’t sleep well for several days, i can’t function. as i’ve mentioned in the past, i’ve battled with insomnia for most of my adult life. i’ve found ways to “cope” but ultimately it’s an ongoing process. sometimes things keep me awake, sometimes i just don’t sleep well. it just depends. point is, today my brain is so tired and yet it’s trying so desperately to think, that it’s focusing on stupid crap.
however – it did get me thinking and researching more about a term i’ve been familiar with but hadn’t thought about much until a friend mentioned it the other day.
HSP – Highly Sensitive Person.
google it, it’s a very real thing. even oprah talked about it on her show once, so the mainstream is accepting it, as well. and, wouldn’t you know – i, myself, am an HSP.
i’ve already gone over about how being mercury retrograde makes me kind of “different” – and then we add this in the mix. I have never been tested by a “real doctor” to tell me that i’m an HSP, but now that i am 34 years old and i’m looking back at recurring patterns in my life, i realize that feeling “sensitive” has always been in my nature. i heard stories about being “so dramatic” as a child – my mother even gave me messages from beyond the grave about this truth in some letters i found of hers… and to be perfectly honest, i’m sick and tired of hearing people say “you’re just too sensitive.” or “lighten up.” or “just don’t feel that way.” as if i have the ability to turn it off. i do not – it is innately part of who i am.
today i finally accepted this as reality. and once i did, the pain in my neck and back began to subside, and my tears lessened. i know here at food and foto, we keep it light and fun and edible. but sometimes life is hard to swallow… and i have to keep the truth at the forefront of my mind above everything. so, thank you for letting me share this about myself today.
i hope that more highly sensitive people will feel comfortable in speaking up and coming forward. i feel we need to support each other. i find joy in writing and taking pictures, yes. however, i find much comfort in knowing i’m not all alone on this planet in how i feel and relate to it and other people inhabiting it.
my results from the online test on oprah.com read as follows :